Reality Check
Today it finally hit me. I'm applying for medical school within the next couple of months. I mentally made a list of everything I needed to do and it freaked me out. Can I get it all done? Can I finish my applications and keep up with my school work, my job, my MCAT prep, my friends, and my leisure time. No. The last two will have to go I'm afraid. And even still I'm terrified. Then all the self doubt creeps in. What if after all this work, they don't want me? What will I do then? Will I have wasted this year? No. I prayed about my decision to come here. I felt strongly that I was supposed to be here. I felt like this was the right thing to do. Obviously good will come out of it. I just hope it's the good that I was expecting and not some other good. I suppose I shouldn't be picky about what good I'm willing to accept. Good is good, right?
"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28)
"Be still and know that I am God." (Psalms 46:10) I never was good at this being still thing.
2 comments:
2 of my very favorite scriptures... I also like Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thy heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all they ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct thy paths."
I like that one too, and also very applicable to this situation.
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